Living with allergies
My entire life I have suffered from pet allergies, and sure a lot of people do.
I grew up with animals, loving them through the sneezing, hives, wheezing, and whelps. For the last four and a half years I’ve primarily lived in a pet free environment, and it has been great. However, it desensitized me to everything that my immune system spent 18 years building up.
I literally can’t go home without feeling like the most fragile thing in existence… I sit in my room that has a baby gate up so that our animals can’t get in my room. My parents pulled up the carpet in the entire house and put air filters in every bedroom to eliminate the bulk of the dander. But I still spend most of my time doped up on benadryl with a mountain of tissues sitting on only surfaces shielded with a sheet or outside. And it always make my mom feel awful…
My boyfriend has a dog too. I absolutely love her, and I love being with him at his place, but I can’t. His roommate got a long haired puppy too… Two dogs in a small apartment doesn’t really create a safe environment. He cooked me dinner last night, and I seriously think I sneezed close to 100 times before he knew that I just had to leave.
I seriously feel like I’m trapped inside my body when I’m in the middle of an allergic attack. It is one of the most miserable feelings to have.
I don’t know… I just needed to vent.
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